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Nov. 30th, 2015 | 03:33 pm
mood: hungryhungry
music: haunted (poe)

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Oct. 5th, 2007 | 02:01 am

This is cross-posted from my CDJ, but I really liked it, so I figured I would put it up here, too. Ignore my Harry Potter geekiness, kthx.

Title. 20 Truths You May or May Not Know About Anthony Goldstein.
Author. the_andorran
Pairing(s)/Character(s). Anthony Goldstein, non-shippy but with mentions of Anthony/Susan.
Rating. PG-13ish.
Word Count.
Disclaimer. All props go to JK Rowling and her publishers. Meme here.

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Jan. 8th, 2007 | 02:54 pm

I stayed home sick from school today... Not because I was really fitfully ill, though I was kind of ill and had been feeling like crap all weekend, but because... I don't know. I threw up this morning but probably could have gone anyway.

The real news is - I got into college! Officially! I have been accepted to the University of Pittsburgh. I don't know if I'm going to go there in the end, but now I don't have to worry about not getting in anywhere.

Yay.

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Dec. 5th, 2006 | 08:10 pm
mood: blahblah
music: there is a light that never goes out (the smiths)

I irrationally hate Hilary Duff's face.

And yet I am overcome by a very strong urge to watch the Lizzie McGuire movie.

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Sep. 7th, 2006 | 03:50 pm
location: Bloomsburg.
mood: complacentcomplacent
music: skye boat song (the real mckenzies)

I miss my American literature teacher. I never thought I would say that I did in earnest, but I do. I realize now that I learned more in his class than I have in all my other English classes combined.

Because I've been considering doing so for a while now, I am going to post another short story that I have written. This was written about four months ago for a creative writing romance assignment, and despite the fact that I hate Mrs. Casteel and her class, this is probably one of my favorite pieces that I've written. It's very Scottish because Highland romance was the genre of romance I picked to write. However, it's not really a romance story, I don't think. It is a story with romance in it.

It's officially called "Layla" because I lacked a better idea at the time (and still do), and because it served as a triple-reference to stories that all fit. The first, is, of course, the song "Layla" by Derek and the Dominoes. The second is the story for which that song is named, Layla and Majnun, which is a Persian epic about a man who goes mad with love for a beautiful woman. The third is the story behind the song "Layla," which is of Eric Clapton being in love with George Harrison's wife, Patti Boyd. See, I know my classic rock.

This piece was heavily influenced by three songs that I happened to have on repeat at the time, and because of that, I'm sharing them with you, too. Because I like to do stuff like that. The first, of course, is

"Layla" by Derek and the Dominoes.
Then, two pieces of Scottish music (of very different bands):
"Skye Boat Song" by the Real McKenzies
and "O Tha Mo Dhuil Ruit" by the Rankins.

(They're all very good songs, by the way.)

Though this is probably one of my favorite stories I've written, it's by no means perfect and hasn't even been edited much by anyone besides myself, so you'll have to excuse that. I've made some changes from when those of you who have read it (veniceatsunset...?), but they're minor. All of that said,

'Layla.' +6,000 wordsCollapse )

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an open letter to the members of SE. so shoot me.

Aug. 10th, 2006 | 12:27 pm
location: Bloomsburg, Pennsylvania
mood: annoyedannoyed
music: this boy (the beatles)

Sometimes, the level of self-absorption at Shadow's Edge really astounds me. It's like, fucking Christ, people. Not everything in this world is about you. The level of just not getting it is a mind fuck, seriously. This post is filtered against all people in that game, so none of them can see it, but I am sorely tempted to open it up and make it public to them, just so that they could understand exactly what is going on. Basically, this is my message to SE. Not that they will ever see it.

Scratch that. You all can read it and make of it what you will.

For starters, I have been where you are, in some sense, before. Last year, someone that I considered myself very close to decided to cut me out of her life in a similar manner, by stopping replies to all emails and changing her journal name without telling me. So I speak from personal experience when I say it isn't that big of a deal. Yes, it hurts. It hurts a lot when you realize that someone that you were once close to doesn't want to be friends with you. But you guys at least had warning. You've had warning since at least May. At least. If you had put two and two together, you would have realized that this was coming from a long time ago. And, you're going to hate me for saying so, but in some ways, you deserved this.

I guess it all started in January, when Raphie decided to do some incredibly violent plot at Incertitude, which I willingly admit may have been a bit over the top, of which S disapproved. Not, I believe, that she had much of a place to. It only affected Raphie's characters, not S's, and the other people whom it affected (me, mostly) had already given her the go-ahead. Yes, it was disturbing, but that's life. S thought it would be appropriate to yell at Raphie and stop talking to her until Raphie ran all of her plots by S, to make sure they were appropriate. Put her on probabation, so to speak. Raphie was reluctant but agreed. This was the beginning of her beginning to feel controlled by S. Meanwhile, S began to start dating Joel, which all of us were okay with at first, but will figure in eventually.

At the same time, at SE, Raphie was dealing with Line and Lissa. Now, I don't feel as though I am in a place to have a personal beef with either of these girls, or anyone at SE, actually, because they've never been anything but nice to me. Or, well, reasonable to me. I can't say that I was met with extreme friendliness there, but I didn't really expect to be, so I'm okay with that. Line, in case you did not know, can be demanding and self-absorbed. She was constantly bugging Raphie to play with her, and she got seriously offended if your characters didn't get along with her pet character, Blaise. Blaise was mostly a vehicle for Line to worship her best friend, Lissa, through her character, Theodore. Apparently Line and Lissa were having marital friendship strains, the whole story of which I admit I am not privy to. Mostly, I always assumed it had to do with the two of them being too clingy. Line, apparently, felt that Lissa loved other people, S especially, more than her, especially after S and Lissa started shipping characters together. There was jealousy, Raphie got to hear Line dis S and Lissa, which she found annoying because she didn't really want to hear Line dis S, whom at that time she was very close to. Alternately, Lissa felt pressured to choose between S's and Line's characters (read: choose between S and Line), and used Raphie as a crutch, constantly requesting that they RP smut or other silly distractions. Raphie began to feel more and more alienated and strained. I sat through far too many conversations in which she said that she was sick of being in this position, but at the time, since it was mostly people being catty and talking about each other behind their backs, there didn't seem to be much of a solution to the problem besides throwing the whole thing out in the open which would just cause a big, ugly fight. So, Raphie put up with Line's whining about Lissa even though Line was quite frequently mean to her, and Lissa's neediness.

As I mentioned previously, S and Raphie were quite close at this time. They had been playing and talking together for more than half a year and pretty much openly admitted that they had things for each other. S, as I also mentioned previously, had recently gotten a boyfriend, whom she honestly at the time did not seem that interested in, so things were still okay. However, in February(ish), it came out in the open that there was stupid crush/backstabbing stuff not really worthy of explaining going on between Line and Evy, which hurt S emensely, because S was close to Evy. Raphie felt alienated by this, too, because S went to pretty strong means to control her and always commented that she worried Raphie loved other people more than her. Raphie felt that her very strong, almost worshipful feelings for Evy were a touch on the hypocritical side. So did I, to be honest, but I didn't say anything because, well, we all do hypocritical things from time to time, and I was on friendly terms with both S and Evy. As far as I am concerned, they are free to be close.

Then, S began to get closer to Joel, and Raphie and S's relationship became more and more strained. By spring, S and Joel were having sex, which Raphie honestly did not want to hear about. It flaired up her jealousy, and S made her feel as though she did not have the right to be jealous, even though S was extremely jealous and suspicious of Raphie's relationships with other people, especially myself and Moni. Basically, Raphie felt that S was being a hypocrite, and started to become more and more annoyed. S started spending more time out with Joel, which consequently made it harder for them to bond, which made Raphie more annoyed, all while constantly putting up with Line/Lissa stuff. She was fed up. Her attempts to stick up for herself weren't working. She wanted a break from SE, partially because she had a lot going on in RL, and said so and stopped posting. She got comments on her LJ demanding that she return and whining emails in return.

By this summer, she was sick of Line and Lissa. She was sick of S's jealousy and then turning around and doing things which made her jealous and her calling her interest in anime stupid and then rambling constantly about Doctor Who and Supernatural. She was sick of playing at SE, because she felt that her characters were just toys to help get off the other huge egos in the game. Instead of causing the huge drama that saying, "I'm leaving you all and I don't want to talk to you again," would have stirred up, she decided to leave. Quietly. She changed her email, her livejournal, and blocked all of SE from her screen names. This was, in part, due to the fact that she felt as though, if she were to attempt to say good-bye, she wouldn't have been allowed to, would have kept being sucked back in. I can see where she was coming from there. And you SE people are all understandably upset.

Maybe it's easy for me to defend what she did because I'm still friends with her. Because I have been watching her frustration for the past eight months and she put on a relatively happy face for all of you. But I don't think that what she did was the worst thing ever. Yes, you might compare what happened her to what happened with me and Malu, hell, I even did. But I don't think that's a fair comparison, because, unlike you, I did nothing to deserve that ditching. You did. Whether or not this was the best way to handle being mistreated... well, that's subjective. But she didn't do it out of spite. She did it for herself, and I applaud her for getting out of that. It's easy for me to stay at SE because I'm honestly not as emotionally invested as she was, or any of you are. Yes, I've been playing there for a year, but you guys, for the most part, have never been very open to me. I am very aware of my status as Raphie's friend. Now that Raphie's gone, that may make me a target, but whatever.

That all said, I don't have any place to hate you, and I did not say this to intend to hurt you. I know that, like I once did, you need to come to some sort of understanding as to why and how someone can just cut you loose. Like it or not, it happens all the time. If we knew each other in person, she would have just stopped answering your calls. Easy as that. It happens. Life goes on. You have to accept that if someone doesn't want you in their life, then you can't pull them back.

Yes, you can hate her. You don't have to forgive her, because she doesn't want to be forgiven by you. She is perfectly at terms with what she did. She actually thinks the fact that you hate her so much kind of funny... why don't you just move on and realize that she doesn't care for you anymore? You can even hate me for pointing out all of the things that you did wrong. I didn't do it out of hate. I don't hate any of you. In fact, I do care for some of you, you probably know who you are, and I don't want to hurt you. The rest of you whom I was never close to... I am passive towards you. I neither love nor hate you, therefore, I have no intent to hurt you. I could say much more hurtful things that would be equally honest, but I'm not going to, because that would be unnecessary.

I can understand that, after reading this, you wouldn't want me around. But the purpose in this wasn't to win you over, it was to basically bash you over the head. Raphie is gone, she never coming back, and she doesn't want your forgiveness. If you can understand that, you will stop hurting. Also, making cryptic posts about 'her' all the time doesn't help, either. Say it once, get it out, and move on with your life. That's what I did, and look at me. I'm okay.

I think I have always been the most reasonable person at SE, and I think that's part of why I don't belong there. If you want to ask me to leave your game and defriend me and stop talking to me, that's okay. I understand. I am, after all, a connection to her. It took me quite some time to open up to the idea that connections to Malu were not Malu herself, and to come to terms with loving people who she is close to. I honestly don't know if all of you are mature enough for that, which may sound rich to you worldly college students coming from a seventeen year old girl. But I honestly do think I'm more mature than you, because I see this situation for what it is.

All of that said, I'd prefer not to have to move my journal, too, seeing as I've been here at the_andorran for almost four years, so please try to keep evil commenting to a minium.

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Aug. 2nd, 2006 | 02:07 pm
location: Emerald Isle, North Carolina
mood: hota bit overheated.
music: moi... lolita (alizée)

People have been asking to see what I wrote while at gov school for a while now, so... I figured I may as well post the only piece that I finished there. And here it is.

Cotton, Slavery, and the Old South by Yours Truly. 5472 wordsCollapse )

I am listening to Alizée in honor of it being Raphie's Pansy's birthday. Babycakessugarbean, I wish you were on. Or jap_exclamation.... Where are you?

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OH. MAH. GAWD.

Jul. 16th, 2005 | 08:27 pm
mood: shockedo_O

I totally pulled an all nighter last night so that I could finish HBP before I came to Colorado. And finish HBP I did. I approximate that it took me a about six hours. Five while at home in the middle of the night. But I stopped for three on the way to the airport cause I can't read in cars. Then I finished the last 100 pages so before my plane took off.

So, let me say,

OH. MY. GOD. I ADORED IT. QUITE POSSIBLY MY FAVORITE BOOK SO FAR.

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I'd be happy if Book Seven never came out. I don't want this series to end.

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Rant Meme v2.0

Jan. 29th, 2005 | 05:10 pm
mood: irritatedirritated
music: Franz Ferdinand- Cheating on You

Rant #2, for the lovely sweet_pepper.

Feminine Hygeine Product Commercials


Just about anyone on this flist can agree with my that advertising pretty much sucks nowadays. You can't watch 15 minutes of TV withouth seeing 5 minutes of commercials. And when people aren't trying to sell me things that I absolutely don't need- for instance, Gap clothing, a new type of vacuum cleaner, beer- they're trying to convince me to buy things that I would buy regardless because uh, duh, you need it. Like toilet paper, paper towels, milk, and dishwasher fluid. I hate those sorts of commercials. ESPECIALLY if they're advertising tampons or pads.

Because, okay. I'm going to buy the damned things anyway. And I know exactly what I want when I have to but them. After the first couple of times around you discover exactly what is necessary to get you through. So why are these people trying to tell me otherwise? What's the point of trying to tell me otherwise on national television? I mean, seriously. Do these people know how incredibly embarrassing it is to be sitting on the couch with your brother and your father and have one of those come on the TV? AUTOMATIC AWKWARDNESS! Even though they don't say anything, they're secretly thinking "Eeew" and I'm thinking "I don't need to see that." Imagine if it were your crush you were sitting next to. The horror!

Then, okay, I've got this whole stigma against the way that tampon commercials are shot that doesn't exactly help. Every girl on this list knows how much having your period sucks, and most of the guys probably do, too. So why do these advertisers want to convince us otherwise. Really, why do they try? They get a bunch of attractive young women, dress them in white, and have them smile for the camera. Or smile for the camera while jumping over rain puddles. Because, you know, the girl in the commercial is really happy to have her period because she has Kotex Leak Guard or whatever. Because the product they're selling not only will absolutely without a doubt garunteed prevent leaks no matter what and will also relief all symptoms of PMS. She is, in fact, ecstatic to have her period, because that means that she gets to use her Kotex Leak Guards.

Pish.

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